Letter 2

What pain, regret, or secret you’ve been carrying? What has been casting a shadow on your life, weighing you down, or drying out your soul?

 

I am a pathological liar, stemming from underlying narcissistic tendencies. I lie to everyone, family, friends, partners, bosses, strangers, anyone who listens to me speak is lied to. Ranging from small white lies and exaggerations to complete fabrications of my past and achievements. I am like liquid, I modify every piece of myself to fit a situation or conversation. My persona is carefully crafted so that no one can see who I really am or know what I am truly thinking. I use my lies to lower the guard of others, and use the information I am given to my own benefit. Wether that be outing someone’s feelings to someone else, or absorbing their stories as my own to use at a later date for my own selfish purposes. I feel no remorse for the lies I tell, furthermore I get a deep sense of satisfaction from deceiving people, especially those closest to me. I have been wearing this mask for so long I’ve lost my sense of self, my integrity is long gone, and my morals have abandoned me. I have no real connection to this world, only to the persona I so desperately maintain. A small part of me wishes someone will call me out on my lies, shine a light on it if you will. But I know that will never happen, for I have mastered the art of deception

 

Now that you've shared what was hidden in silence, what light can you draw from the situation and how it impacted you? Let it become a statement of hope to guide you onward.

 

If there is any light in my deceptive practices it would have to be that my lies have taken me many places, gotten me invited into many circles, and made me lots of money. But I lost the true light of life long ago. My eyes no longer see, my ears no longer listen, for I have been in the shadow of my persona for too long that I abandoned the idea of finding myself. I only live through the mask to get everything I desire. I only hope death can grant me the peace I have yet to find on this earth

 

What advice would you give yourself or someone else in this situation? (optional)

 

Don’t lose yourself in the shadows of your lies. Hold onto for as long as you can, seek professional help, and hope you aren’t consumed by the darkness like I have. 

 

As you end, look inward with kindness:What do you deeply love and appreciate about yourself? (optional)

 

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