Letter 1
“Twelve years later, I still hear the sound of someone crying over what I took.”
What pain, regret, or secret you’ve been carrying? What has been casting a shadow on your life, weighing you down, or drying out your soul?
When I was in my late 20s, my mom was dying and I was in a relationship with a narcissist, (mainly for distraction of my mom’s imminent death). One day we went to target, and while in the fitting room there was a purse someone left behind.
In my past, I used to do a lot of shoplifting, but I’d never stolen from another person.
This day, something in me made me
Open the purse- and steal the hundreds of dollars in cash that lay in front of me.
At the time and shorty after, I justified it as to think clearly they must’ve been selling drugs to have that kind of money laying around… but as time passed I always return back to the moment, hearing someone knock on the fitting room door… hearing someone cry out after we had left and they found their purse empty… hearing someone’s pain.
I know in all reality I must’ve stolen someone’s rent money… money they needed to survive… money I did not need.
This is my biggest burden- 12 years later.. thank you for giving me a space to set it free.
Now that you've shared what was hidden in silence, what light can you draw from the situation and how it impacted you? Let it become a statement of hope to guide you onward.
This regret has changed how I look at what people have or show on the outside compared to what their real inner struggle may be.
It shows me that my brain was doing anything it could to distract me from my pain at that moment.
I was not a bad person, I just had a moment of weakness surrounded by anger and pain of my life at the time.
What advice would you give yourself or someone else in this situation? (optional)
Focus on yourself not the distractions that come your way.
As you end, look inward with kindness:What do you deeply love and appreciate about yourself? (optional)
The ability to see all angles of a situation or circumstance.